The Age Of Seventeen
The quirky age of seventeen. You know that period of when you’ve ‘sweet sixteened’ already and you’re waiting to be legal? Yeah, that!
I just passed that! I turned 18 two days ago and I’m writing this on the 18th, LOL!
I was asked how it felt to be 18 by a friend a few hours to my birthday and I told him, “I cannot answer that till the day, the energy will be different.”
And well, I wasn’t lying. Shit ton is different! For one, instead of me to hear, “you’re almost 18! act mature!”, I’m now hearing, “you’re already 18 now, be a grown woman.” And so now…
… Now! I’m in that annoying age of 18. Where you just entered that legal adulthood stage, but don’t know how to be an adult.
Bitch! That shit is annoying!
Now for me, it’s extra hard cause I’m tryna come out to my parents and I don’t know how to but I put a time limit on myself that when I’m 18, I’m doing this… I haven’t if you can’t see that.
So right now, my brain is doing me like this…
But the energy kind of shifted, I believe.
It was an initiation to my intuition.
Prior to turning 💃🏾ayeteen💃🏾💃🏾, I’d been feeling a little (nah, a lot!) off. I had just embarked on my spiritual, not religious, journey on the December of 2020 and realised I was queer in some way (more about that in another post😉😉). So, I was just reading about spirituality here and there and everywhere! And people were seeing stuff, opening their third eye, talking to their ancestors! I was jazzed! Who wouldn’t? So excited to embark on this, I consumed information left and right and I had a virtual family to support me. It was bae.
Until,
I stumbled (I actually fell headfirst into it cause I searched it up) atheist sites. In my defense, I was just trying to debunk Christianity and what I had learnt earlier in life, and what is still being taught to me. But, I ended up finding articles upon articles, actually debunking the spirituality I was trying to follow. And like the overthinker I am, I did what I did best;
As expected. That did me no good. So now, I’m trying to reconcile my logical brain and my creative, willing to believe in magic, brain. But for now, it ain’t working.
There’s a lot more to put in this post but if I do that, I won’t have any more blog posts to write.
I’m also trying to currently edit my actual blog, but shit is hard!
Stop! Not that hard!
But yes, it is hard. If you want to help, email me.
thank you, come again.
It’s a roll, guys!